HEATHEЯRENEE

rock of ages

2009-10-14T04:45:52Z

let me hide myself in thee.

i can live without sufficent plans for the future, but without lists i'd forget to blink.

2008-09-10T19:32:24Z

i tried to make it not matter to me.
to ignore it.

but it's hard.
there are friends, and then there's "friends;" the ones i always seem to find.
i can't always fight to make things work.
& who knows. maybe it's just a trail.

but what a glorious feeling it was to feel wanted.
to feel like i was apart of something.
apart of that "close knit friendship" thing.
something foreign and distant from most of my instincts.

but i do know this:
i miss jared.
i miss anna.
i miss nickolous ryan.
i miss julie.
& i miss kathryn.

that's the closest thing i've ever had to reliable.
but too close to the edge and you'll fall.

so, you go hide.
& i'll go seek.

insidethis_isme @ 2008-05-20T18:15:00

2008-05-20T22:16:20Z

i was looking through pictures on my photobucket,
and i was reminded of how much i missed kathryn.
when we were close,
and immaturity didn't get in the way.

my favorite were the ones at the scifi convention.
ahhahaha.

listen to me.

2008-04-22T22:28:18Z

problem is all inside your head,
the answer is easy if you take it locigally.
i'd like to help you in your struggle to be free.
it's really not my habit to intrude
furthermore my meaning shouldn't be construde
but i will repeat myself at the chance of seeming rude.

get yourself free.
i am finally FINISHED with my series.
i have tanned for the past week, for an hour everyday.
and everyday, some sort of stinging bug has tried to attack me.
thursday is the big day (dedication of the art building!! & art display/banquet. come check it out ya'll!)
saturday is our party.
im so stoked.
uhm, tomorrow jared is picking me up from school,
and hopefully we can go fishin again.
ahahah, that was so much fun.
i've got so much to do for the party though.
and banquet.
im still crossing my fingers about vice president!
hurrra. oh yes, and i've got to burn cds for the luau. (=

im blending in so you wont even know me.

2008-04-21T22:26:25Z

i'd like to know that you are happy.
i'd like to feel that you're pleased.
i wish i wasn't drownding in secrets,
i wish i was empty in the sea.
i cannot bring myself to hate you,
i cannot bring myself to call you.
i just don't want hard feelings between us,
we both know that its too late to stop a good thing from dying.
but maybe we could muster the strength not be aquantices.
now im in piece over you.

so, i woke up this morning.
and realized, that i didn't change over night.
i realized that im the same as i was and am a week ago.
so, i'll wake up early tomorrow,
and meet with Jesus.
because while you're shocking the world with your desire to shine in their eyes, i want to shock Jesus, with the ability to shine pure and clean in his eyes. because, that's all that matters, right?
while you can have the world,
all i want is more.
give me Jesus

My eLJay

2005-11-11T01:36:02Z